Um this week has sucked. I feel like I'm just so tired. It might be the seasonal depression. Going home soon!!!!!!!! (Which is a bad thing by the way. That's where the depression is coming from.) I really should give myself a rest day, but I also need to push onward. And I can't afford a day off because I already didn't do two assignments. I'm in the mood to make a comic. I'm self-medicating with caffeine because it helps the ADHD. We'll see if anything at all gets done. If not, then I'll hurt myself on purpose.
Y'know that's another tangent I could go on. I wish I had the volition it takes to scar myself! I wish I could have a real life or death situation instead of just running from schoolwork and taxes. If I had torture waiting for me if I didn't do my work, would that help? It kinda did in primary school... But it wasn't very pleasant. It wasn't a fun game. And half the time I didn't do the work anyway and just took the punishment like a lazy little failure. ADHD is fun. And so is not knowing you have ADHD until you get to college and just assuming you are stupid and worse than everyone else even though you're trying your hardest, and you're overreacting because of sounds and getting headaches from school and barely being there enough to talk to anyone or keep friends and then forgetting everything that happened in the span of the eight or so years you were in middle and high school. It's real great.
lethargic
