Several friends are making avatar models for me (or at least, with me in mind), em of Halley Labs has given the opportunity to buy the last spare copy of 2YR and a copy of Mr. Driller for the PSX, they ALSO made a Halley@Home design for one of my favorite FIAB albums when I asked about the possibility of one existing, AND I was able to get a really good deal on a vintage Susumu Hori plush on Ebay. It's a lot of material goods, but the fact that this many people are willing to part with things or put effort into making something for me is reminding me that a lot of the self-deprecating thoughts I have really don't have weight behind them. I've been quietly struggling a lot in the background due to some traumatic BS crashing down on me, and as self-centered as it may be, this is something that's starting to pull me out of the dark a little. I'm not out of the woods entirely. I do feel like I'm not entirely present, which means there's something going to crash down on me again later, but things are a lot more enjoyable now than I thought they would be just a few weeks ago.