Im feeling weird
i did it yet this time ive felt fear.
i mean adrealine hit me . i know becaue im trembling
i shouldnt feel fear . just guilt fornotgoingdeeper .
it made me hesistate . it hurt more than usual .
maybe it was because of how i was holding the blade?
it felt more sharp . but the release is satysfying .
nomoreguiltasiamfree .
fornow .