pretty tired even though i just woke up from a three hour nap. what the heck im always tired. had a pretty fire outfit today and got a picture of myself in it where i was like HOLY CRAP I DO HAVE THE BODY I WANT which was pretty nice feeling. Gotta lock that one away and remember it because man oh man does the insecurity hit me like a train when im sleepy. ykw was having a kinda rough day i suppose and didnt text me at all throughout the day which is okay. i didnt text him first because i always text everyone first AND i asked for HIS number so i gotta make sure he's not just enjoying the attention yk? I was getting lwk nervous but he texted me at 7 apologizing and "i promise i dont hate you" which was validating ig and im not hurt or anything but i am super tired of trying to sort out my emotions about this. i dont want to be single the rest of my life but do i really need to feel THIS LEVEL of weirdness with myself. its like i dont even know me and im so tired of it. but we keep it pushing. one day this will be laughable. anywayyyy i have a bunch of stuff to do now so see you later alligator.